-~BANG~-;

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

after much critizism,
PAUL TWOHILL
(or sth lk that)
is still the cutest.
HAHA.
partly because he's quite cute.
and and,
he sang HERE WITHOUT YOU.
woohoo.
i sang along too!
cos well,
he sang it for me.
OPPS.
sis's friend kept saying he's cute.
didnt believe at first.
and she even woke me up from my sleep.
=.=
all the OH-HE'S-SO-CUTE.
but well its true.
HAHAHAHA.

alright.
i believe im taking quite a few rollercoaster rides per day now.
sounds expensive but i will bear it at full cost.
IM NOT CHILDISH.
stooooooopid barbie.
gonna kill him.
come to thnk of it,
yeah im not!
i thnk i was too sleepy to talk back.
IM NOT IM NOT IM NOT.

maybe im just not myself.
been doing thngs lanyan wouldnt.
foolish ones.
and i was trying hard to grasp everythng i have.
a little too hard i guess.
i dont thnk anyone can breathe properly.
but well.
im gonna give it a lil thought.
been saying things lanyan wouldnt.
what a big mouth i have.
been hearing thngs lanyan would have listened.
but reacted a lil too much.
been slacking since forever.
well thats what lanyan will do.
but NOT NOW AND ANYMORE.

wake up sucker.

i meant to type if ur using me as a backup.
but well i will observe then continue this.
cause i do believe you have your own reasons.
well at least i believe it.
:)

MARKED OUT ON 9:41:00 PM

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well.
woke up at 6am today.
tee hee hee?
its a HOLIDAY MY GOODNESS.
but for netball,
i have to sacrifice my slp.
reached sch at ard 7.20.
training started without me cos i was late.
a total workout for 2hr and 40 mins.
K.O for lanyan.
i almost died.
haha ok no the sun nearly evaporated me away.
lol.
and then chem mass tutorial.
the lecture theatre was only 1/5 filled?
pathetic.
and it was alright lah.
but the teacher was so bulliable.
hahaha.

then we went to j8.
the legend shopping mall as an ex amksian.
lol.
lm was pathetic.
she went j8 for the gazillion time and she still couldnt figure her way out.
i was better.
so im proud of myself.
LM DONT GO ON A DIET.
hahaha.
had quite a talk with her.
felt better.
well at least i have someone to talk to.
and she's so similar to me lah.
FAKERS at home and school.
tsk tsk.
lol!

then yea.
my sister's friends are here again.
this time another one.
she forced me to play on the piano.
so..urr.
made me so embarrassed.
HAIYA.

oh and did i mention i fell down for training today?
LEGEND fall.
i tripped on the ball.
=.-
the ball flew to my feet,
so i gotta run and catch the ball.
but somehow,
it hit my toes,
and i tripped and skided on the rough ground.
UGLY UGLY.
but well im TOUGH.
whats there to whine about?
hahaha.

and i must study i must study i must study.
must beat JIEMEI.
the smart asss. =/
irritating but at least he listens.
LOL.
see im so nice.
its a compliment ok.
:)

[due to the hurt i have inflicted upon SOMEONE, i thnk its better to take this part off.]

cant wait for shopping this sat.
well its more lk altering my clothes.
they are so LONG.
hahaha.
im gonna do alot of stuff on my denim.
hahaha.
gonna go out with the yans again!
woohoo.
its good going out with em.
hahaha.
cant wait.
its only times lk this that makes me happy.
well thats what i feel.

the match is coming.
and im still jumping lk a fat cow.
WHEN will my feet leave the ground?
i cant jump for nuts.
i hope the matches will be good.
=/

friday is the amkss meeting.
the gossipers.
ahahaha.
long time no see!
i really miss em!
and the big time shopper!
lol
LEGEND lah!
hahaha.
well well welll.
hope training will be in the morn.
so i can change or sth.
lol.

well.
im gonna finish up gpp and rest.
gonna mug tonight.
fin up work to be done then study!
wee cant wait.
im gonna top the class.
LOL.
first i need my legendary books.
TEN YEAR SERIES.
lol.

jana~

MARKED OUT ON 3:51:00 PM

extravagance of LOVE

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

after some kind of talk with a wise man,
i've gave my silly self an answer.
well i cant do much but to make myself happier.
after all,
im the one who is suffering.
not anyone else.
so ya.
try telling me things and i would most probably throw it back at you.
i mean if i dont see it,
i cannot verify it.
like if he cant see it,
i cant do anything about it as well.
after all,
gossips rule this world.
most of this world.
its quite pathetic to let gossips rule over you.
dont you think so?

went for a jog today.
wanted to improve my stamina.
but seems like,
heaven is not on my side.
my shoes nearly gave way.
sigh.
bye red shoes.
HELLO blue shoes.

somebody came over to change our meter.
friendly malay guy.
and ya it was scary cos i was the only one awake.
and my bro was still in his deep sleep.
luckily he woke up in time.
thanks to some bulletin i read last night.
what rapist thing.
WOAH scary.

my sister's friend talked to me awhile ago.
he was from SR.
asked about quite a few teachers.
a pretty indian chem teacher??
well i dont see any.
except for a plump chem teacher who owns a mercedes
oh yea.
and well.
he FAILED GP.
goodness.
i was very shocked.
and he was shocked too.
by our new system.
so yeap in equilibrium.
lol.
but he is in uni now.
but i hope i WONT fail a single subject.
my goal for mid term!
hahaha.

well my sister is giving tuition again.
so i sorta wasted my day.
fooled around for the whole day and nth was done.
hope i can at least fin part of GPP.
quite a big load but im confident of finishing it.
well yea.
:D

goawayimsorryifimirritatingbutidontseewhyyouaresomean.

some pics from the last 1s10 outing.
hahaha.

FOR SOME REASON, i cant get the pics up.
WHAT HAPPENED SAMUEL?
lol.
too bad for you all.
hahaha.
theres a video too.
but...
i dont know how but anyways see it some other time whoopee.

alright gtg there is chem tut tmr.
OHWELL.
hope i wont suck in netball.
ewwww.

jana~

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Monday, May 29, 2006

Well I cant deny im feeling sad again, out of the blues.

Why I think im just not myself.

It is passable.

But I haven’t given it a thought.

All over again.

I hate it when I listen to songs.

I get emotional with them.

Sign-ness.

Maybe its not meant to be.

All over again.

The memories.

Came back flooding full in my mind.

The mouth,

But I cant speak.

The ears,

But I cant hear.

The heart,

But it aint beating now.

It all died.

Flew away like the wind passed by.

Isn’t getting nowhere.

Just my luck.

I will not taste it,

I swear,

Cause its bitter and pain.

Bring me a coke,

Drown it all down.

Maybe I might get drunk,

And I will not even feel the pain.

But I know it wont happen.

Cause it is just coke.

And take away the story.

Im not interested.

Although im in it,

I would rather be a tree.

So I wont get to touch you.

Not in my life.

Though I would like to.

Now now now now now I know why.

Cause its just me.

sorry and thanks.

just tell me.

MARKED OUT ON 10:44:00 PM

extravagance of LOVE

Saturday, May 27, 2006

there is nothing much to post.

june hols = no hols.

i will be studying on every free day.

school will be my second home. apart from amkss.

i wont be meeting much of those people i wanna meet.

i will be missing someone.

i will end up munching on crackers and staring at the tv set everyday.

i will be terrible in physics if i dont study now.

i will be extremely sad at home trying to figure out sequence and series questions.

my sister will nag at me every single day for studying or not studying.its all the same.

i will be deprived of getting online and rot infront like nobody's business.

my life will be shortened with the lack of sleep.

my double chin will mutiply a thousand times by itself.

my legs will become wobbly with the slacked muscles.

my tummy will not fall off like i wish it would.

my PW will not be approved if im so slack.

my chemistry will not be good if i skip all my tutorials just to memorise.

my econs will not improve from 19 to 29 if i dont memorise the skills well.

well i shant grumble.
i will study hard i dont care.
MUST WIN JIEMEIS.
cannot lose ah.
so far for ALL the tests,
i only won jerk for ONE PATHETIC ECONS TEST?
shucks.
im such a loser.
well everyone please study hard.
i mean my friends.
dont let camps, outings and hol trips such as to LONDON affect your studies!
:)
as a source of motivation,
i will allow SOME outings.
well.
towning i suppose.
what else.
looking forward to FOOD HUNT again.
teehee.
my favourite.
maybe we should scout holland v.
heh.
i wanna try fruit curry.
been yearning for it since THOUSANDS OF YEARS ago.
someone please be kind to bring me there.

bring me a part of you.
that is more than enough.

right.
wasnt in the right mood since the day sch reopened.
i dont feel myself.
orange julius said alot today that really provoked my brain to thnk.
thngs that i selectively chose to erase away.
well,
i dont dare to thnk.
all the unhappiness will well up again.
why bother?
then,
it all went back to the first few months.
though its a bit too short termed,
it so happens that ONE song brought back those memories.
how silly i was.
maybe if i've known you earlier?
i wouldnt have thought of that.
we were worlds apart.
i dont have the courage now.
im so sorry for being me.

well.
school doesnt promise thngs to be smooth FOREVER.
i must admit my mentality is drifting apart.
years doesnt really count now.
i have to agree im losing my value.
so upsetting yet true.

and the cool gang that i thought i have.
is nothing except for a wisp of smoke.
yea its dream like.
but it disappears when you wake up.
is it me or what?
why am i always thnking OFF the tracks?
im like a stuck lighter.
i cant click properly now.

then its my attitude.
i have to admit it sucks.
terribly.
i cant control it at all.
im like a mad bull after a red cloth.
just a pathetic red cloth.
im sorry for pissing my close ones off.
maybe i've made my assumptions far too early.
i swear to get myself clear from now on.

and ontop of that,
friendship problems all over again.
those we've had in sec school were minor.
thnking back,
orange julius did made a point.
i was to silly to believe EVERYTHNG.
pardon me.
but im beginning to feel like a fool.
but not now.
i believe everyone will learn from the past.
hope all of us learnt.
except for some.
well i've got to know some thngs that i werent supposed to know.
surprised?

and the poseurs.
though i know that you had a sudden boost in confidence which i dont understand why,
does that give you the authority to GOSSIP, DEMORALISE, or even COMPLAIN?
come on.
look at yourself!
turning whiny to clique with girls doesnt turn you more man!
one thing i've learnt,
shut my mouth at the right time.
yea and i havent been doing that.
im so sorry.
but please do feel sorry for yourself too.
cos i cant bear to see you clown around anymore.
i would rather be straightforward as a friend,
then hide my emotions.
cos i know too well you will get hurt one day.
why either its a blow that strucks hard on you or internal injuries.
either one will deal fatal death.
will that make you a happier person?
i dont thnk so.
take it or leave it,
i choose not to live in pretence.

and im about to promise myself not to be affected my others.
its their mouth not mine.
i cant control.
BUT they cant control mine can they?
a friend is a friend.
what is there to hide?
if im so afraid,
i wouldnt have been around.
i wouldnt even have SPOKEN A SINGLE WORD.
please grow up.
its a source of entertainment.
and im into it as well.
but there is always a limit.
do keep to it.

this is a uber long post.
but im gonna continue.
im not a cushion.
a particularly old one.
cos number one,
im not old and dusty,
and number two,
im NOT comfortable.
im not here for you to fall back on.
though i can be mean,
it doesnt mean im ready for any sacrifice since im a mean ass.
stop it alright.
im not here to let any of you bully.
let alone INSULT.
i take such thngs seriously for YOUR information.
thank goodness majority of them come mild.
i dont know why but im proud to say im bearable with most.
but dont test my patience.
cos none of you all have seen the real thng.
HAHAHA
sounds so scary.
its not that bad actually.
its for the effects.
HOHOHO.

anyways,
after typing all that shiat out,
i can breathe again!
hahaha.
wah so lame.

took neos with lm annette and reuben today.
well we had a fun time fooling around with the machine.
the WHOLE thing would have been perfect if reuben could smile more.
that DAZZLING smile can kill eh?
hahaha.
and yea his pictures!
hahaha.

wow look how handsome reuben became.
hahaha
and yea,
for YOUR amusement.

wow lk what reuben had said. ugly freaks from the past.
lm, nette, reuben and me. ewww.

me and jiemei. lightbulbs on thurs. =/

eww.

my oh so cute husband in class.hahah woo!

alright.
i will stop here for today.
too long of a post alr.
haha.
enjoy!
if ANYONE will read.
lol.
jana~

MARKED OUT ON 5:50:00 PM

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Monday, May 22, 2006

aiya.
im so sad now.
bala just told me off.
cos i keep calling him bala.
AIYA.
sorry krishantan!
ITS MY BAD.
boo hoo hoo.
really feel so bad now.
no matter how many times i apologised he still sound mad.
hais.
typical me lah.
im so sorry for being me.
=(

anyways,
after alot of waiting,
i still didnt get e chance to receive the pics from the SAT trip.
so yea.
i've decided to post some other pics instead.
heh heh.
zilianing in the bus.
hohohoho.
and I HATE PW.
its making me so stressed up yet nobody knows.
well.
i've gotta bear with it.
SAVE ME.
:(

an especially sophisticated one. x)

this was when she got to know im gonna pang seh her.LOL.

she wants her side view taken. -.-

act ISHU. :D

shit look at my double chin.
diet time.

well well.
off to PW.
:((

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Sunday, May 21, 2006

WHOOPEE.
MI fair wasnt really as fun as i thought!
no cuties!
no good food!
cant buy drinks!
weird games!
small area in the middle of nowhere!
and i didnt bring my tic!

BUT BUT BUT!
we still had loads of fun!
took plentiful pics on annette's cam and yiru's handphone!
HAHAHA!
thats when the fun started!
WHOOPEE!
but too bad i dont have the pics.
wah anti climax.
hahahaa.
but well.
it will be up soon!
i promise!
x)

MARKED OUT ON 1:15:00 PM

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Saturday, May 20, 2006

wow its been ages since i blogged.
ok im gonna talk about what's happening in school.
ALERT.
lol.

right.
we all have been studying.
although we dont really have the time,
all thanks to our cca and entertainment programmes,
we try all our best to mug.
for eg,
i stayed up from 8 to 4 in the morn to study.
whoopee.
i had my fair share of dark eye circles.

then we wil all act crazy to calm ourselves down.
to bluff ourselves that the fact is we're gonna have lectures later on.
and the scariest,
GP tutorials.

and then we will eat.
and eat.
and eat.
cos the food is cheap and good?
no no no.
because we have to or else we will die of hunger.

and we will stay in the aquarium after school.
whats that?
its a place to drown yourself.
:/
not literally drown,
but to study like mad.
it is a place to crank people up,
especially when you're a slacker.

and then the rumours.
wow.
i didnt know jc is the same as sec sch.
so urrhh?
hahaha.
hello people?
jc is SO different from sec sch lah.
like rumours are so unecessary.
although it does spice up our lives.
like.
whoopee?

ok that was so lame.
i have nth much to say!
life is so boring.
couldnt really come online due to the many factors.
TIME MANAGEMENT
o well.

just my luck.

rights.
gonna go the MI funfair later.
hope its fun.
or i will die of boredom.
hope i wont meet people i dont wanna meet.
though i know i will.
whoopee?
nah.

MARKED OUT ON 11:44:00 AM

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

oh wells.
i just realised i havent been taking pictures recently.
wow the mood just aint there.
no wonder i havent been uploading any pics.
ok will do it asap.
i promise.

ok.
well,
i was pretty happy with the voting results ytd.
at least we had PAP back.
but i heard that GST will go up to 6%?
that sucks.
hahaha.
wah GOVERNMENT INTERVENTION.
idiot.
LOL.
aiya so lame.
but yea dulcia aint that happy.
sorry ah,
bear with ur old man.
OPPS.

right.
went out for a walk today.
at 2pm.
the sun scorched us bald.
WHOOPEE.
i felt lk a burnt chicken.
thats bad.
talked and talked to rae.
well well well.
she said she aint a 3.8.dots.
i dont believe.
ok i was the one doing the salty words.
AHHH.
sorry its a habit now.
THANKS AH JIEMEI.
:/

then we deprived 4 kids of their chance to play the swing.
but we let them anyways.
the kids sure dont like any YOUNG ADULTS to snatch their playgrounds.
cos for the 2 playgrounds,
we were somehow shoo-ed away.
frustrating but we've gotta accept the fact.
AHHHH.

right.
back to the books.
im sure looking forward to the oncoming hol.
VESEK DAY!
wah i wanna go back visit ms deepa!
hahaha.
or maybe on deepavali's day.
OPPS!

and i want to go back sch to get my cert!
ahahaha.
ANNETTE PLS DO STH.
hee hee.

YOU ROCK YOU ROCK YOU ROCK!

MARKED OUT ON 6:01:00 PM

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

WHOOPEEE.
my BIRTHDAY IS OVER.
ok im supposed to be sad.
a little the day after but im OK now.
hahaha.
after birthday blues.
OPPS.

right.
3may06.
the day was good.
very good.
because it was my BIRTHDAY.
hahaha.
lame.
ok.
received many birthday wishes.
many thanks to you all who remembered!
cos i cant really remember dates well.
SORRY!
=(
but yea.
i will jote down a few names.
though i know its abit dumb, but i want myself to remember all of you.
:)

ANNETTE (first on the list!) GANG RUI GANG YI(same bday!) [thirdmaybabes! WOOHOO!]
geof BESTIE reuben desmond amanda yiru dawn melissa rachel beatrice wugui lebin limain boonxiang SHUI LI YUYAN QIYAN chinhwee junwei daryl jinping cindy bochun sarah yanxuan jasmine cynthia tiffany delphine jinxing zhiyang lizi kingsly yating huishan brandon babyboy yuanyuan shawn molester elicia crystal dulcia cailin daphanie yushi meixiang jillian baozhen guangyu alvin valerie mr limleehock

shucks.
hope i didnt miss out anyone.
or i will feel bad.
well.
im pathetic oh yea.

thank you yuyan and qiyan for that outing again!.
hope we wil meet up soon.
:)

thank you babyboy and friends for that attempt of a birthday bash.
luckily it didnt happen.
OPPS.

thank you annette, yiru, reuben, geof bestie and desmond for dinner last night.
had loads of fun!
NEOPRINTS next time ah!
promise!

thank you everyone for even remembering a small fry like me.
i really appreciated it!
:)

ok back to the topic.
HAHAHA.
school ended early.
so we had time to play.
SUPPOSEDLY to study.
sorry jiemei wasted ur time.
but its NOT TRUE that i always waste your time ok.
we were supposed to go farrer park to study.
since the men/women we were waiting for were having rugby/touch rug training there.
after meeting annette yiru desmond and william hung, we tagged along to accompany annette to buy her boots.
well,
im so smart to have guessed that you will buy the nike one.
TEE HEE!
and we were all so lame to have played with the clothes there.
trying to make the erhem parts of the body out with a cardboard.
LOL.

right.
then we proceeded down to little india.
lol.
farrer park at little india.
sounds funny.
but well.
only then did we found out that farrer park doesnt have benches to do our work.
so jiemei and i went to eat at ZHUJIAO (pig's leg) hawker centre.
wah.
took so long to find the place.
and the market STINKS.
smelled of rotten corpses.
YUCK.
yea but smart me found the place without having to cross the market again and again.
HOHOHO.
yeap.
ate and ate.
talked alot of salty words.
guys brains really work differently as compared to the ladies.
we rock.
after an hour or so,
we went over to watch the touch rug girls play.
met the rugby guys on the way.
well.
they were not so bad.
some of em.
so yea i thnk annette and yiru did quite a good job as starters.
DONT LOOK DOWN ON PEOPLE MAN.
stupid.
OPPS.

waited for and hour or so again.
talked salty words.
again.
then yea jiemei gotta go.
so i had to bring him out then walk back again.
what the.

then after more waiting,
we proceeded to plaza sing.
then went pizza hut to have our dinner.
wah.
lk we ate the mummy's day offer.
ERR.
no mother's around somemore.
ate and ate.
lk a BIG FAT PIG.
boo.
but we had a fun time fooling each other.
hahaha.
wee~
yea after dinner at 10,
we wanted to take neoprints.
but the shop didnt want to give us change.
after asking around for a LONG time,
we didnt manage to get enough $1 coins.
boo.
so we went back.
but yea.
theres always a next time.
tee hee hee.
had a good time.
really.
:)

well gtg now.
oh shucks.
im starting to get old.
i feel old too.
sigh.

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

well.
yea.
tmr's my birthday.
yay.
im abit upset that it falls on a weekday.
im so constricted to celebrate it,
or go shopping.
so i've got to spend my day studying.
and i just found out i have a maths test tmr.
how sweet.
nice gift.

oh yea.
cindy came over today for the rugby match.
SRJC vs SAJC.
well.
they do sound pretty close.
but there is a difference after all.
yups.
SA won.
but,
I WANNA KILL CINDY.
wl say until srjc lk so bad.
its not ok!
they are not very experienced thats all.
hahaha.

BUT thanks alot for the card!
though i havent open it but im sure i will like it!
hahaha.
THANKS GRAND KID.
stop pestering me for milk.
LOL.

ahhh.
and yea.
its jie meis' birthday too!
haha.
so qiao ah.
a pair of twins whose birthday is the same as mine.
oh wells.
sorry but i thnk i gotta give belated prezzies.
well.
i gotta blame it on myself for not handling it well,
and of course.
school.
hahaha.
OPPS.

ok i thnk i better stop here.
im getting really agitated.
maybe i shouldnt blogsurf that much.
it might make me a happier person.
probably.

i know what you're thinking.
and im loving it more everyday.
:)

MARKED OUT ON 8:32:00 PM

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Monday, May 01, 2006

WHOOPEE.
im back online.
coming online has been sth fun for the past 2 days.
:)

and yeap.
alright.
that was lame.
its supposed to be fun all the time.
ANYWAYS,
went out to study today.
how lousy.
jiemei kept whining lk a girl.
cannot stand HER.
and we saw guang yu and ziying at mac as well.
ok and more amksians.
SO NOISY.
we were noisy too.
but there were MORE people who were noisy.
ok lame.
we bought a gift.
yea pretty ex?
ahhhh.

COUNT DOWN!
2 more days to my birthday.
wah...................._....._...........................................
.....................................................___>..............__....
nth much.
hope my experiment succeeds.
:)

cash IN!
cash OUT!

yea what people will type is:
i hope my dream comes true.
hee hee.

sorry im not so typical lah.
i hope my dream WILL BE TRUE.
HEH HEH.

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS! :)
GOOD, BESTIES, CLOSE AND ALL!

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