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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

just a long chat on the phone.
well it made me feel better.
and YES!
a better pespective to life.
:)
how fickle,
yet how true.
heh heh.
but well,
i wont erase what i've said.
those are how i felt.
and i want to learn.
to become smarter,
and not live silly-ly ever after.
LANYAN IM SO PROUD OF YOU.
now study time.
;)

yiru! you can do it too!
and noboday tell me bout sentosa so i dont know a thang lah!
so no biGIni.
LOL.

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sorry if im being so odd.
cos i cant bring myself to do things that i dont feel like to.

im shutting myself out.

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YAY.
after so many papers,
lk GP, physics and maths,
i am so confident in failling all my subjects.
yippy.
its disgusting actually.
urgh.

right.
went to meet qiyan on saturday.
TO STUDY.
lol.
YES it was after GP paper.
did i blog that day?
oh i didnt.
but anyway,
she wanted to go to the temple at bugis to pray.
HAHAHA for her o's!
super funny.
and yea yiru and limain came along too.
:)
then yes we went there and prayed.
and we actually wanted to get a lot.
those that u shake and shake to get one stick to drop out.
yea.
wanted to ask sth.
BUT the uncle discouraged me ah.
SIAN.
hahaha.
but well there is always a next time.

and i went to look for my uncle.
hmm come to thnk of it i should go work part time for him.
generally, quite a good pay.
i mean its always better than empty promises.
well cos he's my uncle.
so things will be better.
but i thnk it will get boring too.
cos all you do is sit there.
and im afraid all the customers will run away!
oh no.

then yiru and limain went off.
qiyan and i proceeded to kallang.
the mac is a bit small,
i mean as compared to amk's.
hahaha.
but yes we ate and ate.
and i zzz-ed.
so i didnt really study for that day.
cos we had match later on!
sorry qiyan made you wait so long.
:(
but luckily the time wasnt wasted!
hahaha.

yes the match.
played with zenith.
they are pretty old.
around 20 odd?
we lost. (as usual)
but i dont know why we were quite contented with ourselves.
i mean you can still see us smiling after the match.
prolly cos we enjoyed ourselves.
hahaha.
and yea the GS is a nice person.
but she forgot when is National Day.
-.-
super funny.

so yes.
went back to meet qiyan.
then we chatted for quite some time.
and i needed the time to air my smelly feet.
LOL.
cos my shoes were wet.
EWWW.
and then we went to amk for dinner.
HAHAHA budget ehh.
LOL.

ok so random.
partly because im feeling chatty today but i dont know what to say?
HA.

THANKYOU qiyan for you listening ear.
that was something i needed badly.
hahaha.
sounds desperate.
but you wont know when you need it.
ok now its sounding more like a product.
but anyways,
yes yes.
im annoying but well!
thats life.
HAHAHA.
and yes!
thanks for studying out with me!
although im like always bullying you!
HAHAHA.
oops.
and thanks for buying the sour plums for me.
really sweet.
haha if not i will puke on mac's floor.
cool!
HAHAHA.
hope we can go camping at yuyan's house soon!
lol.
eat and eat and become fat.
but we will play table tennis till night falls so we can lose those calories!
HEH HEH!
x)

it aint some thing i could choose.
when it came,
i accepted it.
but,
it was flawed.
full of thorns and pricks.
i badly need to release it.
cos im feeling so uncomfortable.
after a long time,
i've decided to pick it up again.
the pain in my mind was no longer there.
long forgotten.

some time later,
it came back.
im too foolish to have thought that it will become perfect?
things will not mend easily.
i think its a thing,
cos it doesnt really exist in our minds.
it is long forgotten.
holding on for the sake of holding on.
all the claims,
all the empty promises.
and most of all,
the tears.
does it really count?
as long as a better one comes?
i think all of em are building up.
even taller than a skyscraper.
come to think of it,
i was prolly fooled.
or even,
i fooled myself.
all the changes,
all the encouragement,
all the promises,
all the fun times,
all those things that we encountered.
was it my imagination?
or was it flawed,
so tattered and torn that i couldnt bring myself to believe it,
holding on to it so that i assume i will be happier.
so even when i get ignored,
get the cold shoulder,
dont get the listening ear,
lost my precious time,
wasted my breath,
it was all my own fault?
but it aint those commitments that are the main issue.
it is the THING.
how did it end up in that state?
is there a way to mend it?
perhaps some glue?
maybe not.
not this time.
just like to the other person.
if it is so terrible,
and there is always a better it,
why not i just grab that?
forget about this.
it is all so tormenting.
just something that will make me happier comes along,
well i can forget about it.

all i can say,
it will just make you a more despicable person.
cos i've had enough.
more than what my tiny heart can take.
YOUR hypocrisy,
made me absolutely disgusted.
YOUR self-centeredness,
gave me no chance to breathe.
YOUR idea of understanding,
is not what it seemed like it anymore.
cos we are total strangers,
who claimed we had it as a proof,
something that will make us inseparable.

im not welcoming YOU back.
cos it aint gonna be a good experience.
and you know what i mean.
sorry if you dont,
cos i dont wanna say more things,
and get myself thinking so much when you dont even give a damm.
dont say im being harsh,
dont say things are fine.
cos you know,
and i know it too,
that things aint the same anymore.
ANYMORE.

i wont say im perfect.
cos no one is,
but this thought is driving me crazy.
and im giving it up.
i AM to naive to believe,
everything.
and the threats,
are sucking up my air.
i really dont understand,
how did things turn out like that.
when it was going good,
the sudden change struck me dumbfounded.
maybe its my perspective,
but you are not what you seem alr.
it is as if back to the old us.
and im hating it,
as usual.
cos its sth unforgivable.
all the commotion,
came out with nothing.
and yes,
i will not learn,
and will never learn.

wow i am so whiny.
and i cant believe it.
but hope things will turn out better.
cos i am in the other's shoe.
but the situation is different.
maybe much worst.

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Friday, June 23, 2006

dont try to be a goodie two when you know you are not.
bad reputation.

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yay.
there are GP papers tmr and i havent read my notes.
and exams are only next week and i havent finished revision.
let alone practices.
and i am slacking my way because my brain is haywired with the compliments of a bad headache.
and my stomache is growling showing signs of indigestion.
in other words,
im sick,
and i do not have the ability to cope with exams.
sweet.

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

well hello everyone.
hmmm...
i can predict the future.
right now,
i have a very intense urge to say sth,

currently i AM very emotional,
and i am not studying when im supposed to.
heh?
i THINK i might most prob flunk my exams.
yippydoodles?
do check my name out on the score board.
dont bother to look from the front.
the back will be an easier task.
YAY.

what a loser.

anyways,
WENT OUT YTD.
where else,
to yuyan's house.
heh heh.
ok we were supposed to study.
ok i did.
one chpt?
i can seriously go bang my head.
blahblah.
ok in the end,
the gym trip was cancelled.
we played TABLE TENNIS instead.
LOL.
we had not enough bats,
so yuyan had to borrow from a neighbour.
awww.
but the thng is,
she doesnt know a bit bout that neighbour.
she's her maid's good friend's mam.
BAHAHAHA.
but yeah,
we had fun.
:DD
i want BBQ too.
some ah bengs look alikes were having a BBQ there.
AWWW.
:(

anyways,
we played for quite some time.
then we went back to yuyan's house.
for STEAMBOAT.
HEHS!
damm fun.
we played and ate at the same time.
whoopee?
ok we managed to finish a whole lot of food.
then its left with the unpopular food.
quail eggs, bittergourd and prawns.
cos its the cholestrol, that bitter thang and those shelly stuff.
so we played table games.
well at least we were still sitting by the table.
and FINISHED the leftovers.
and yes,
we bought ROYCE chocolates for qiyan.
BELATED GIFT.
awww,
i swear its even more heavenly than GODIVA's.
cos they aint bitter.
x)

yes then it was DA CHANG JING.
ehh yuyan didnt wanna watch movies,
there goes my brokeback mountain :(
so it was THAT.
well,
lk what qiyan said,
only the last 5 episodes are worth watching.
AHA!
too bad to those worshippers.

ok then home.
well nth much.
but i love blogging!
yippydoodles!

come to thnk of it,
its been quite some time since the hols started.
and it past really fast.
lk zoommm.
one more week to go.
and i still aint studying.
im seriously gonna bid physics goodbye.
havent touched the main topics yet.
yipes.

and yes.
the friends.
i really really really am scared of the people from that school.
YIRU IM CERTAIN.
its the terror building up in me.
maybe its not anybody's fault.
it lies with me.

but well,
i dont thnk i want to even thnk about it.
i just want to lk stay happy.
what a corny verse but i want to live to it.
:)
well that holy man is gone.
an acquaintance.
so its up to me to decide for myself.

yes yes,
i seriously have to agree to what my sister had said,
"best friends? MY FOOT AH!"
we came to an agreement that there are no BEST friends?
hahaha.
but well.
my sisters are my bestest friends.
:)

ok this is getting boring.
signing off.

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Friday, June 16, 2006

yipee.
im at yuyan's house.
a certified pig sty.
what you can do here:
-EAT
-SLEEP
-STONE INFRONT OF THE TV
-EAT
-PLAY
-AND EAT AGAIN

namely these few ONLY.
sigh.
but well its a good place for bondings.
:DD

ok we were supposed to study too.
sigh better get back!
so that we can eat happily for the steamboat later.
HEH HEH.
x)

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

wow.
i just uploaded my pictures.
and suddenly,
they came lk a flood.
and HUGE ONE.
haha lame.
theres quite a bit so bear with it.
well lets start with the recent ones.
ok those that i can remember.

GRANDMA's 80th birthday!

sigh my grandma wasnt feeling that well.but hope she enjoyed her day. at least. :)

ok next up:
QIYAN's BELATED BIRTHDAY!

1) & 2) the pretty cake by yuyan!
3) &amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp; 4) qiyan and the pretty cake!
5),6) & 7) QIYAN and ME!
8) yuyan who didnt want to be taken.
9) & 10) yummy yogurt ice cream from YUYAN! x)

next up!
the studying at mac!
see how mac makes people hallucinate how tw

it-ish they can get. LOL.

and the baby who loves vying for rachel's attention. -.-

ok the rest are with yiru.
so i cant show you all the videos.
AWWW.
but well its so ugly no one wants to watch.
and we even scared customers away from our area.
double AWWW.

ok next soccer match at KOPITIAM!
the huge toad.

dammit i look fat.
BUT yiru's laksa looks fatter.
HEH HEH.

ok last one.
im tired.
the sisters went crazy.
well it was actually me.
AHH.
crazy folks.

sorry for the really dark pictures.
sorry if you all cant see a thng.
i blame it on my phone.
AWWW.
well as you can see.
all 3 of us went bonkers.
nonono its the 2 of em.
LOL.

ok i only rmb these.
too many pics to post and im so lazy to categorise em.
some other day!
ahhaha.
well well.
time to study.
have so many thngs up.
friday i have a HOT date with the yans'a again,
and PW.
sigh sigh.
written report!
this huge thng coming on as well...
EXAMS.
urgh.
well all the best to me.
=/

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

OOHLALA~
AUSSIE won JAPAN.
heh heh im so smart to have guessed that.
lol!

rights.
went to sch ytd for lessons.
my goodness.
alex lum came late,
and so we expected the lesson to drag.
BUT NOT AN HOUR MORE.
imagine 3 hrs of econs?
errr.
and he even discussed about his son.
lmao?
and then was PW.
ok it wasnt that bad.
FINALLY the GPP was approved.
i wasnt even listening to him talk for most of the time.
just wondering if we had to redo the GPP.
lol.
now its the written report.
=.=

then met up with yiru and huili at kovan.
hahaha.
study study!
but well..
i was to anxious to do much cos i was going to have trg later on.
then yea we saw DAWN!
hahaha what a coincidence.
then trg and blah.
it was ok.
but thoughout the trg the mac meal in my tummy kept churning.
eew.

and then huili went home.
yiru and i went to toapayoh.
cos we want to watch the world cup.
BUT,
stupid us went to the wrong one,
and we ended up with no seats.
so,
someone suggested to go kopitiam.
hahaha and we went.
luckily we found seats and it was nice of yiru's dad to treat us to drks.
:D

YES and so aussie won only in the last,
erm 10 mins or so?
tyco lah.
hahahaha.
:D

ok going out for appt later.
so troublesome but well.
I WANT TO WATCH SOCCER AGAIN!
take that hint?
lol

i just did this thng on friendster.
so cheena but damm true!
follow the instructions and do it.
i thnk its really accurate
hahahaha.
tata~

Message: CHINESE HOROSCOPE:

FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS -
DO NOT CHEAT
OR IT WON'T WORK AND
YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T.

TAKE 3 MINUTES
TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT.

THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO ME
SAID
HER WISH CAME TRUE 10 MINUTES
AFTER
SHE
FORWARDED THE EMAIL

NO CHEATING!!!!

THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY
OUTCOME.

DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT.

IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH
A TRY

1st. Get PEN and PAPER

2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE
SURE
THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU
ACTUALLY
KNOW

3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST
INSTINCTS !!!!! Very
important for good results.

4th SCROLL DOWN

ONE LINE AT THE TIME
DON`T READ AHEAD
otherwise
YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN.

1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE
NUMBERS 1
through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT.

2. Next to the NUMBERS 1 & 2,

WRITE DOWN ANY
2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.

DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER?

3. Next to the NUMBERS 3 & 7,

WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO
MEMBERS
OF THE OPPOSITE SEX.

CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT
WILL NOT
TURN OUT RIGHT

4. WRITE ANYONES NAME

(like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)
next to 4, 5, & 6.

DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET
THAT YOU
DID

5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in
8, 9, 10, &
11

6. Finally,

MAKE A WISH

ARE YOU READY?
HERE IS THE

KEY TO THE GAME

1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE THAT LIKE
YOU is
found in

SPACE 2

2. THE PERSON IN SPACE

3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE

3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your
relationship
CANNOT WORK is in

SPACE 7

4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON
you put
in

SPACE 4

5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER
5 IS
THE
ONE WHO

KNOWS YOU VERY WELL.

6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS
THE YOUR

LUCKY STAR

7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT
MATCHES
WITH THE

PERSON IN NUMBER 3

8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR
THE

PERSON IN 7

9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG
THAT TELLS
YOU MOST ABOUT

YOUR MIND

10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING
HOW YOU

FEEL ABOUT LIFE

11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR

LUCKY NUMBER

repost this
WITHIN AN HOUR OF READING THIS.

IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME
TRUE.

* REPOST WITH Chinese Horoscope
(Freakishly correct)

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Friday, June 09, 2006

WEEEE.
at yiru's house now.
well well well.
its a friday.
isnt it a day of fun?

ok i shall update bout ytd.
hahaha.

first we went school!
missed the first lecture cos it was raining heavily.
plus we were very late.
well.
went to mac for breakfast.
HAHA.
mac was pathetic.
and i meant the KOVAN's one.
when we went in,
MAC HAD A BLACKOUT!
lmao.
damm funny.
there were little screeches here and there.
BAHAHA.
ok then we stoned for a while,
and there was a BLACKOUT again.
lol.
so unbelievable ah.
hahahhaa.
blah blah.
when we were still stoning,
the a BIG GRP OF TWITS walked in.
well one of em happened to have act before so i could recognise him.
we had a great time mimicking em.
and also,
laugh.
ahhh.
i wonder will we have retribution for laughing at em?
erm.
then we went back for lecture.
it was pretty boring.
but we lived it thru.
:)

and then we went back to amkss.
COS julius asked us to go.
but we went missing for about an hour or so.
hahaha.
sweet move.
and we loitered in school.
ahhh home sweet home.
but there was no one there.
except for a few lah.
then went to change to meet qiyan and yuyan.
erm.
the toilet were really bad.
the ventilators were broken.
badly damaged.
hais.
so i was forced to change infront of limain and yiru.
AHHH!
hahaha.
they din look lah.
LOL!

then i went to meet yuyan first.
we had a hard time searching for a place in the food court at taka.
LOL.
lk so aunty had to wait for a free seat.
well we we got one at the corner,
then set up the cake.
hahaha one candle!
will post the pics soon.
yeap.
when she came,
she was a bit pissed cos i din meet up w her first.
but well,
we sang her a birthday song OUT LOUD.
heh heh.
she was embarrassed but well.
the singers were even more embarrassed.
hahaha.
then yuyan went off to meet her cousins.
then ya we tried to thnk of more food to eat.
btw the cake was baked by YUYAN.
woah amazing but probably the first and last cake?
OOOOOOOOOOPS (yiru taught me to type lk this)
and ya it was delicious.
heh heh.
when yuyan came back,
qiyan treated us to takopachi.
hohohoh.
then we proceeded to marina.
CHANGING APPETITES.
hahaha.
damm cool lah.
the ambience,
the food.
pls just go there for the main courses.
the mudpie is bad.
yeap.
NYDC ones are the best.
and yea the BARBARIAN is damm good.
heh.
full lk shiat.
we left to buy chocos at suntec.
but the shop closed by then.
and yuyan had a craving for YAMI icecream all of a sudden.
so we walked and walked.
but the shop was closed.
all left with the frozen ones.
well she bought it anyways.
but the majority was eaten by me and blackie.
AHH?

shucks im so fat now.
my weight..
i would prefer not to disclose it.

then went sch today again.
all luckily we took a cab?
cos it rained damm heavily again.
but what a waste of money.
cos i woke up at 7 when im supposed to leave by 7.
AHH.

blah blah boring lectures then i went down to yiru's house.
really a bit lk second home ah!
hahaha she cooked lunch and i just looked ard.
hahaha guess i will be leaving soon.
MY WEIGHT MY WEIGHT!
im blaming it on my menses.
:(

hope the pictures will appear by itself eh!
hahaha.
and the next trip was planned!
the steamboat gang.
:D

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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

woah today damm scary.
its 06/06/06.
quite freaky cos it reminds me of the OMEN.
urgh scary scary.

maybe because of its scaryness,
i was late today.
sorry annette and limain!
my bad.
and well i ought to pay for the cab fee but...
AHHS.

econs was pretty bad too.
we din get the tut.
so we went in there for the mass tut with nth done.
how nice.

went to eat prata opp SRJC aft that.
my god.
their oil lk free.
practically.
so much!
they were lk deep frying the prata.
what regrets.
and i thought the oil prices were rising??
=/
crapped alot with samuel, jie mei and limain!
hahaha so funny.
and the ahpunehneh damm helpful.
good service!
lol.

and then went back to sch.
supposedly study.
but julius came along...
so we talked and crapped instead.
his juon crap scared me quite a bit.
ahhhh.
and ya lm is as blur as usual!
lol.
and then he went for lesson.
and we met up w yiru.

ahh dont be sad ok!
you were almost there!
i swear!
but im very very sure you are stronger this time.
:D
tell him all!
you can do it.
i can assure you
no regrets!

then home.
lol.
i missed the appointment cos no time.
ahhhh.
aiya go another time liao.
shucks i havent call yuyan im gonna die.
hahaha ok gtg now.

:D

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

WTFWTFWTFWTFWTFWTFAWTFWTFWTF.
MY 101th REASON FOR NOT STUDYING AT HOME.
my mum is a fking nagger.
SHE MUST MAKE ME UPSET EVERYTIME I GO OUT.
fking hell.

ignore that.
went for training ytd.
and i was uber late.
sorry ah!
and i skipped so many drills and passes.
aiya slacker.
and well we went to PLCC.
near kovan.
and they were having some basketball competition?
3 vs 3.
lol.
so many weird guys and girls.
poseurs make up most of the population.
and this girl came over to say hi to coach.

girl: "you are zhen zhen right?"
coach: "who are you..."
girl: "you are zhen zhen right?"
coach: "ya but who are you?"
girl: "i am ___ ___ sister"
coach: "really meh, why become so ah lian..."

LOL.
trash lk shiat lah!
hahaha.
so straightforward.
damm funny lol.

went to study with yiru later on.
well i missed phy tut cos of training.
and thanks jiemei for not waiting for me cos he wants a ride home on calebee's car.
=.=
cheapo kia.
yea catched up quite a bit with her.
HAHA.
and the spas photos.
MUST POST MUST POST.
can ROLL ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING ah.
hahahaha.
we tried quite a few categories.
lol!
well.
i want to watch anime.
will make me feel better i guess.
=/

stop stop stop all the nagging.
i know you all meant well.
BUT please listen at least?
i have no say.
and DONT CALL NAMES.
sometimes, it just come like this.
now i know why people just cant study at home.
im a stereotype.

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Thursday, June 01, 2006

i cant believe it.
im online for so many times this week.
amazing ah.
and im blogging so much.
miracle eh.
lol.

well well.
ALL THE BEST TO YIRU AND ANNETTE.
MUST WIN TOUCH RUG COMPETITION!
(hee hee mud colour)

hahaha.
sorry ah nette!
didnt mean to say hurtful thngs lah!
must go out and study soon ah!
lol.
MUST PATCH UP.
hahaha.

ok im so lazy.
but i manage to finish GPP and SURVEY and INTERVIEW qns.
quite a bit.
but NOW I DONT KNOW SEND TO WHO LAH.
why mr hui must change his yahoo mail to gmail.
WHAT IS IT AH???
goodness.
i better msg someone.

ok now that its afternoon,
i better go study.
samuel went to mac to study!
wah sian sorry i lazy go ah!
anyways.
YES i must conquer physics.
OH YES.
see ya all.
:)

to all: dont worry im a happy girl now. thanks for caring ah!

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