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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i dont know if i got the load off my chest,
but it definitely helped.
uh hope it did.

felt pretty drousy ytd night.
had a bit of a headache all of a sudden.
even my dinner lost its appeal.
all i wanted to do was to sleep.
DIDNT EVEN REVISE.
oh man im such a lazy ass.
woke up with drousy eyes.
couldnt even make myself read a SINGLE PAGE of notes.
i could just lie flat on the bed and act like the sheets for a whole freakin day.

its not right to think.
really.
its eating me inside out.
im near hollow.

and then!
school.
woo.
its embarrassing to walk in late.
but i thnk its ok.
unlike the usual,
i strolled to school.
wonder why but i had this urge.
ahahaha!
bought myself some sweets and then walked on.
i like this feeling.
sometimes,
restrictions force me up the wall.
but i guess i do need it.
especially with my typical attitude.
for eg,
NOW.
ahaha.

school was good today.
cos i learnt something.
really!
recapped here and there too.
i want to study!
but i get tired easily!
maybe i should be on drugs.
like CAFFEINE.
so i can STUDY.

i guess i know the answer to why i couldnt studyy.
distractions!
AHH.
i must really crash this com.
HAHA.
and BREAK my PHONE.
not that any one wants to msg me but WELL.
HAHA.

AND AND!
clear my house of any edible foodstuff.
when im studying,
i can eat ANYTHNG.
haha
no not my terripin or fishes in the pond.

and then,
i will attach an electric sensor that will send electric waves to wake me up when i doze off.
heh?

kiddin.
i would probably die before i can study.

well random thoughts!

mood affects me pretty much.
this TIME OF THE MONTH is getting on my nerves.

willow tree?
that has been on my mind after reading it on the papers.
aha.

i hate that pimple on my chin.

im getting a tummy!
:(
thats bad.

im not studying.
obviously..

i nEED HELP!
i need dates with the teachers.

i have to be a nerd.
FOR ENTERING INTO A JUNIOR COLLEGE?
-------------quoted from JILLIAN QIAN.

i saw peter khoo pin yok!
30th anniversary!
sweet.
but the 10 kg?
haha!

i saw simeon lookalike!
looks depressed!

I SAW DAWN'S BROTHER!
WOO MACHO MAN!
:DD

and the rose refused to budge.
come to mama!
its lying on the table photosynthesizing.

i feel restless.

confused.

irritated.

like talking.

LIKE SPILLING MY HEARTS OUT.

like doing a brain scan.

like doing a surgery to read my heart.

like going for plastic surgery and having a new name such as yan lan.
or whatever.

like kicking the shit out of those dumb asses who have no brains for their own.

like being as frank as i can.

like being nice without having to hurt myself.

like being selfish and to have ZERO EQ.

like telling how i feel about anyone than to keep it to myself.

like punching those who makes use of me.
OR MY SISTER.

like crying my hearts out now.

this is how fast,
my mood changes.

hope its for now.
and only now.

edge closer,
lend me your shoulder to lean on.
but after the rain,
i would like to see the rainbow.

oh yess!
thank you OLD DUCK for listening to my rantings today.
HAHA.
random yet you could understand!
amazing.
HAHAHA.
i must do qi gong to calm myself down.
AHAHHAA.
walao lame.
i thnk the popping of pills sound more cheena
BUT ANYWAYS!
THANKS A GAZILLION.
:DD
and i love the cheappppp bangles!
HOHO!

how i wish you could be my friend before this.
i swear i will treat you much better.
skipped steps.
and i want to retrace them.
even before continuing.

MARKED OUT ON 4:38:00 PM

extravagance of LOVE